Ever since I was 6, I have been wearing hearing aid to amplify my nearly-deaf condition for both ears. This birth defect was due to the side effect from the medication my mother took when I was conceived in her womb. Since then, I have accepted and adapted to this physical disability. Wearing hearing aid has become a normal routine for me in the morning when I get up. I remained cheerful and happy because I know that with my hearing aid, I can be as normal as anyone around me.
When I was in Secondary One, my good friend brought me to a healing conference at the national stadium. I went, thinking that it was another evangelistic outreach programme. I accepted Christ in Primary Six and thought that it would be a good opportunity to go since I could not attend church services due to parental objection. At the end of the conference, the pastor asked for those who want to receive healing to go forward. My friend gestured me to go forward to ask for healing for my hearing. But I refused. Simply because, I do not believe in physical healing. It would be impossible for me to be healed instantly.
I attended Spiritual Warfare Weekend on 16 September 2006. At one of the practical sessions, Pastor Victor encouraged us to go forward to release word for healing. I closed my eyes to wait for God to speak to me. He showed me a glimpse of the healing conference that I went to back in Secondary One. It dawned on me that I still harbour a singe of unbelief in my heart. I did not bother much about it and went on thinking that it isn't anything worth much of my attention. I was feeling indifferent.
I shared this with Pastor Yolanda, my G12 leader and sisters after the training over supper. To my surprise, my leader Lay Leng and sister Melissa revealed that the Lord prompted them to pray for my physical disability. Another sister, Huiyi who was previously my cell leader, also mentioned that she wanted to pray over this area for me since a few years back.
I was overwhelmed. I did not know how to react and respond to what they had just said. But Pastor Yolanda's words just pierced right through my heart and hit directly at the core of the matter - that is, I need to settle my unbelief and start trusting God. It was hard for me. I did not believe that healing could take place in what that I had resigned to and lived comfortably for years. How could I live without the hearing aid which had been so much a part of my physical makeup? I really could not imagine life without them. These healing aid had been my security blankets for years. Unbelief and deception flooded me. But I know, the only thing to do is to PRAY. My spiritual family prayed over me. I prayed and asked God to help me to trust Him and believe in Him. I wanted to believe.
Huiyi was prompted to release a word for me from John 5:1-15, and that I am to remove my hearing aid. And Pastor Yolanda challenged me to remove them as she believed that God has healed me.
Slowly but confidently, I removed both hearing aid. Everyone looked at me with intense anticipation. We tested and started to talk. Thank God. I could hear better. It was clearer and louder, compared to the past when I removed my hearing aid. At that moment, we thanked God for what He has done in my life. My faith has risen because of the miracle.
I have learnt that healing could take place instantly or over a period of time. I will put what I have learnt into practice. Going through each day without my hearing aid would not be easy because I have been so dependent on them. I used to feel insecure because I am afraid to ask people to repeat what they had said or to speak slowly.
Right now, I'm wearing the hearing aid on the left ear so as to help me in lectures and lessons. Yet with only my left one on, my daily life seems perfectly normal yet different. It is different because I know that God has done His work of healing in me. And everyday when I wake up, I give thanks to the Lord for His awesome ways and wonders. I am assured and confident that God has healed me and my future is in His hands. He will definitely heal me completely eventually. This is truly a breakthrough and a miracle in my life
Praise be to God! J
(Testimony by Seow Bei Xuan from Gan Lay Leng's G12)
Praise God for He has did a miracle to our dear sister, Bei Xuan...
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